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THE devastating reality of raising twins with a life-limiting condition has taking a huge toll on Jesy Nelson. But now she has revealed a secret strategy which she has kept from fans, that is helping her cope.

The former Little Mix star opened up about how she’s dealing with her twins’ health taking a turn for the worse – admitting it’s “got her through” her lowest of times since her one-year-olds Ocean Jade and Story Monroe were diagnosed with Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 1.

Last month The Sun told how, at the girls’ most recent three-month review at St Ormond Street’s Children’s Hospital, doctors warned they are not responding to treatment the way they had hoped.

It came days after she said she “can’t stop crying” over her “bittersweet” victory to change Government policy to test all babies in England with SMA – knowing it came too late for her twin daughters.

Now Jesy says she is using the devastating death of her friend’s child to combat fears she’ll be “heartbroken every day for the rest of her life” – after admitting she’s struggling to cope with her daughters’ prospects.

The 35-year-old told The Sun in an emotional interview: “One thing I constantly remind myself – and I think about it every single time I go to Great Ormond Street – is that there are always people worse off than you.

“I’ve got someone really close to me who lost their little girl and the pain that I feel for her every day…

“She would give anything to have her little girl back, whether she had what the twins have or whatever.

“I have to remind myself that, yes, I’m in this situation and it’s f***ing hard, it’s heartbreaking, but it could be worse.

“I just have to be grateful that my girls are still here and they are happy and I still get to see them every day.

“That is what gets me through. Genuinely, that is what I have to just remind myself every day.”

Jesy’s fight to add screening for spinal muscular atrophy to the NHS newborn blood spot test featured in her new Prime Video documentary, Jesy Nelson: Life Changing.

Every year 50 babies born with the condition will now find out they carry the genetic condition at birth. It means they can be given treatment before nerves and muscles are damaged beyond repair.

During the 60-minute programme, Jesy broke down in tears over the guilt she carries and worries her children will blame her, when they’re older, for not spotting the signs sooner.

The late diagnosis means the girls will most likely never be able to walk and will have problems breathing, eating and drinking on their own.

Jesy said it was a “tough pill to swallow” and she struggles to accept the diagnosis.

“I constantly battle between manifesting they’re going to defy the odds and trying to come to accept that that may not happen.

“It’s a really weird position to be in because you you think ‘well, if that doesn’t happen, am I just going to feel heartbroken for the rest of my life?’

“Then you worry, if I accept it, am I also manifesting that?”

She added: “Another friend of mine whose friend lost a child gave me advice, which I thought was really poignant.

“Basically he said, ‘you can’t live your life feeling heartbroken if it doesn’t happen’.

“He pointed out ‘you’re never going to enjoy the special moments with your girls because you’re constantly going to be thinking, ‘but I want this and I wish this had happened.’

“I’ve really tried to make peace with that. It’s a constant mind battle.”

Jesy now has to face both twins needing further operations – as well as Story being diagnosed with scoliosis, the abnormal curvature of the spine in an S-shape.

After recent test results, she told us: “Unfortunately, some of the numbers have gone down. We had a long discussion and there’s a possibility they may have to go back on treatment, which is just heartbreaking.”

The girls – who are on feeding tubes – will both undergo an op soon to repair trauma to their nose and throat.

Doctors will find an alternative way to feed the girls to avoid further damage.

Meanwhile Story will have to have an operation every six months because of her scoliosis.

“It’s never-ending,” added Jesy.

Asked how she copes on her toughest days, Jesy said: “I don’t really get a lot of time where I get to be by myself, but I think music is one of the biggest forms of therapy.

“So if I have to go to the shops, and my mum is obviously looking after the girls, I’ll get in my car and that’s one of my favourite times because I can blare out my music, which I never get to do.

“It’s the best and I just find it so therapeutic.”

A phased rollout to enforce SMA screening in England will begin in October 2026, but Jesy’s fight doesn’t end there.

She is continuing to raise awareness of the condition because the screening won’t be available in other parts of the UK.

“I hope as many people as possible see the documentary because I wanted to raise as much awareness as I could about it and the signs to look out for”, added Jesy.

“As amazing as the rollout is, Northern Ireland and Wales are still not part of the heel-prick test, meaning many babies will still be undiagnosed and not treated in time.

“I’m just praying that if they watch this documentary, they will spot the signs early enough, take them to the doctor and get them treatment.”

• Jesy Nelson: Life Changing is available exclusively on Prime Video.

LEIGH-ANNE Pinnock has come under fire for telling fans they can pay to ‘follow her pregnancy’ by signing up to a paywall site.

It comes despite the former Little Mix singer, who is currently expecting her third child with her footballer husband Andre Gray, having an estimated net worth of around £5.9 million.

Taking to Instagram on Tuesday, Leigh-Anne explained to fans that she had set up a Patreon page where she will be sharing ‘pregnancy, bump updates, everyday life and all of the things in between’.

Fans can pay £5 per month to access the content.

Leigh-Anne, who already shares twins with Andre, wrote in her Patreon bio: “Hey It’s Leigh-Anne here!

“As some of you may know by now I’m pregnant with my third child and wanted to create a space for you all to get a deeper insight into my world, my pregnancy journey and general life as a mother, singer, wife and woman who’s trying her best.

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“Excited to see where this journey takes us and can’t wait to show you all the things I get up to along the way.”

Patreon is a platform used by influencers and creators to share exclusive content.

Following the page’s release, some fans were confused as to why the multi-millionaire singer is charging for her content.

One fan branded the move ‘out of touch’ as they said: “Genuinely this is extremly weird for someone as big of a name to start a patreon to… show a pregnancy? Tbh it feels a bit out of touch for my taste.”

Another asked: “Are you broke?”

A third slammed: “Wow.. she really needs that money eh?”

However, some were on board with the idea and have already signed up.

“Just signed up to follow your journey, can’t wait to see what it all brings!,” wrote a fan.

Another defended: “The Patreon is strictly for the fans that want to follow her pregnancy journey a little more closer. She doesn’t have to show anything at all but she’s choosing to on her terms. That’s the difference from posting publicly.”

On her Patreon page, Leigh-Anne urged fans to keep the content she shares exclusively for there and not share it elsewhere online.

There is a free option on Patreon which allows you to watch some videos, but not the subscription-only posts.

Alongside her ultra-successful run with Little Mix, Leigh-Anne has had a booming solo career since 2023.

Her husband, Andre, has played for football clubs such as Brentford, Burnley, Watford and Port Vale.

JADE Thirlwall has split from Jordan Stephens after six years as a couple.

The Little Mix star began dating the Rizzle Kicks singer in 2020 and had since moved in together – dividing their time between homes in London and Margate.

But The Sun has learned they separated earlier this year, although are still close.

A source said: “Jade and Jordan had a very serious and loving relationship but recently they have had some frank discussions about their future and have decided to separate.

“It’s not been an easy time but they’ve both been throwing themselves into work.

“Their friends adore them as a couple and are really hoping they get back together but it’s still very raw at the moment.”

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Reps for both Jade and Jordan have been approached for comment.

Last month, they failed to post about their sixth anniversary together, which they had shared updates about in the past.

They have also not been photographed together for several months – with their last red carpet appearance as a couple being at February’s Brit Awards where they partied until the early hours.

Neither have posted about each other on Instagram since mid-March, and Jordan recently wiped all of the TikTok videos they made together from his profile.

When asked in June about progress on her second album, she hinted at her heartache.

She told The Fader: “I’m just writing stuff. Whatever I’m going through at the minute, like privately, I’m sort of putting pen to paper.

“I think this is the exciting phase or the experimental phase, where you don’t know what it’s going to be yet.”

Jade also attended her bandmate Perrie Edwards’ wedding in Portugal last month without him.

The Sun first revealed they were dating in 2020 after they went on a series of socially distanced walks during the Covid lockdowns.

The Shout Out To My Ex singer said she “slid into his DMs” after a friend suggested they would be a good match, and they had dates on video call.

She explained: “It was through a friend. I slid in the DMs. I’d been doing this for quite a while. I kept getting pied left, right and centre.

“Jordan and I did a few Zoom dates in lockdown. We made a joke and said it was business and put suits and ties on and asked each other questions. I did the full shebang, a full suit.

“Then we had a socially distanced date in Greenwich park, apart from each other just chatting.”

Jordan recently took over as co-host of the popular Miss Me? podcast with Miquita Oliver, replacing Lily Allen.

Fans had noticed he hasn’t spoken about Jade on the podcast for several weeks.

He had a successful career as one half of pop duo Rizzle Kicks from 2008 to 2016 before relaunching the group in 2024.

As a musician, Jordan also worked on her debut album That’s Showbiz Baby! which was released last year.

Jade said at the time: “I actually really didn’t want to date a musician. I’d done it previously; it never works out well. But it’s amazing now. We write together.

“He’s on my album; I’m on his. Jordan’s on the backing vocals for Headache.”

She is currently on a festival tour which will see her spend August travelling across America, Japan, Ireland and the UK.

JESY Nelson says she “can’t stop crying” over her “bittersweet” victory to test all babies in England with SMA – knowing it came too late for her twin daughters.

The groundbreaking rule change comes as the former Little Mix star faces fresh heartache over her one-year-old kids, Ocean Jade and Story Monroe, whose latest test results sparked concern following treatment for the muscle-wasting disease.

It’s feared the girls will never be able to walk after a late diagnosis of the life-threatening condition Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 1.

In her new Prime Video show, Jesy Nelson: Life Changing, the singer breaks down in tears over the guilt she carries and worries her children will blame her, when they’re older, for not spotting the signs sooner.

Jesy told The Sun: “I know it’s not my fault, but when I watch back videos of when I brought them home and they were kicking their legs, I realise now that over the course of a month, they just stopped.

“That’s the part where the guilt kicks in because I don’t understand how I didn’t see that. Why didn’t I spot that?

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“But when I left the neonatal ward, I was constantly told to check their temperature, make sure you’re monitoring their breathing and there was so much other stuff that I was looking out for because they were premature babies.

“I just honestly didn’t focus on the movement of their legs.

“Thank God for my mum, because God knows what position I would have been in if she hadn’t spotted it.

“That will probably never leave me. I’ll be honest, I don’t think it ever will. But I really hope as they get older, they understand how flipping amazing they are because they are the most resilient little girls I’ve ever known.

“I’m literally in awe of them. Even with what they have to endure every day, they are the happiest babies.”

At Ocean and Story’s most recent three-month review at St Ormond Street’s Children’s Hospital, doctors warned Jesy the girls were not responding to treatment the way they had hoped.

She said: “Unfortunately, some of the numbers have gone down. We had a long discussion and there’s a possibility they may have to go back on treatment, which is just heartbreaking.

“I constantly battle between manifesting they’re going to defy the odds and trying to come to accept that that may not happen.

“It’s a really weird position to be in because you you think ‘well, if that doesn’t happen, am I just going to feel heartbroken for the rest of my life?’

“Then you worry, if I accept it, am I also manifesting that?”

She added: “I don’t ever want them to feel any less than or feel like it defines them. I really want them to know how special they are.

“I want this to be their little superpower.”

Speaking candidly, Jesy admits the success of her campaign for a breakthrough rule change – adding screening for spinal muscular atrophy to the NHS‘s newborn blood spot test – was a tough pill to swallow.

Every year 50 babies born with the condition will now find out they carry the genetic condition at birth. It means they can be given treatment before nerves and muscles are damaged beyond repair.

Jesy said: “I’ve not stopped crying, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I just keep going through waves of emotions. I’ve had an outpouring of messages from families within the SMA community.

“It’s just a real weird one because obviously there’s a lot of mixed emotions. I think for people dealing with children that have got SMA, who got diagnosed too late, feel it’s almost a bit bittersweet.

“It’s a tough pill to swallow to know that, yes, this change is amazing and I really don’t want to take anything away from it, but if only this had been here for our children.

“It’s just sad because so many families have campaigned about this for years.

“So yeah I’ve going through a real mix of emotions, but ultimately I am super proud. I’m ridiculously proud and cannot wait until our children are old enough to tell them they’ve played a massive part in change.”

Her new Prime Video doc is released on Friday, July 17.

The 60-minute episode shows the moment Jesy finds out her daughters’ diagnosis and her grit and determination to launch her campaign.

While a phased rollout will begin in October 2026, Jesy’s fight continues to raise awareness of the condition because the screening won’t be available in other parts of the UK.

“I hope as many people as possible see the documentary because I wanted to raise as much awareness as I could about it and the signs to look out for.

“As amazing as the rollout is, Northern Ireland and Wales are still not part of the heel-prick test, meaning many babies will still be undiagnosed and not treated in time.

“I’m just praying that if they watch this documentary, they will spot the signs early enough, take them to the doctor and get them treatment.”

• Jesy Nelson: Life Changing will be available exclusively on Prime Video on July 17.

LEIGH-Anne Pinnock has confirmed she and husband Andre Gray are expecting their third child – and the signs were all there. 

The former Little Mix singer, 34, has been busy promoting her debut solo album My Ego Told Me To, but it’s not just the new music that’s acted as a distraction for fans when it comes to her pregnancy. 

Leigh-Anne took to Instagram last week to share snaps from a trip to Los Angeles, including one of her covering up in an oversized denim shirt and matching jeans. 

She and Andre, 35, recently took their four-year-old daughters to Thailand and some of the holiday snaps suggest Leigh was hiding a bump. 

In one photo she can be seen posing behind her girls in an olive green minidress. 

Another stunning shot saw the proud mum and her daughters in the sea – with Leigh-Anne posing with her back to the camera. 

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The Don’t Say Love hitmaker and footballer Andre are fiercely protective of their children and have never shown their faces or revealed their names. 

Earlier this year Leigh-Anne opened up on her decision to keep her daughters out of the public eye. 

She told People: “I remember when they were born, I was going through this online hate thing and really seeing the toxicity of social media.

“I mean, I probably would’ve still decided to not show their faces anyway, but that just kind of confirmed it for me. I want them to be able to make that decision.

“I want them to be able to [choose] if they want to be famous or not, because once they’re out there, they’re out there.

Leigh-Anne and Andre tied the knot in 2023 in a beachfront ceremony in Jamaica.

LITTLE Mix star Perrie Edwards modeled her own merch in a series of sizzling selfies at the weekend.

The songstress, 32, snapped herself in the mirror, wearing just a long black T-shirt with her own face emblazoned across the front of it.

Perrie donned a netted black beanie and showed off her lithe legs in knee-high PVC boots.

She wore her blonde locks in a bouyant style and added a vampy, deep red slick of lipstick to the look.

Perrie showed off her moves in the mirror for the selfies, dipping into a deep squat for the sexy snaps.

In one seductive shot, she was seen slightly lifting up the tee, revealing more of her legs.

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The singer is still only a month on from her wedding to Alex Oxlade-Chamberlain.

She and her footballer husband tied the knot in an intimate ceremony last month after nearly a decade together.

Perrie was straight back to work though, hitting the festival circuit for the summer.

She took to the stage at the Isle of Wight Festival at the end of June, belting out hits for a buzzing crowd while wearing an all black skintight outfit.

Though she couldn’t help but take a moment to gush about her wedding to everyone, sharing how she is utterly “obsessed” with being able to call Alex her husband now.

Perrie and Alex jetted off to Portugal for their big day alongside friends and family.

Insiders said the pair married in a low-key ceremony before hosting their closest family friends at the posh Parrilla Natural restaurant.

The pair said their vows in the Igreja Matriz de Estoi church in the village of Estoi in Faro, close to where they own a villa.

Perrie, who had six bridesmaids including her sister Caitlyn wore a long-sleeved, lace gown, while Alex looked smart in a tux.

PERRIE Edwards has shared a behind-the-scenes wedding video, as she officially changed her name after getting married.

The stunning singer, 32, tied the knot with footballer Alex Oxlade-Chamberlain, also, 32, over the weekend in a lavish ceremony in Portugal.

For her big day, Perrie had six bridesmaids which included her sister Caitlin, her cousin Ellie, twins Lucy and Lydia Connell, manager Sam Cox and dancers Claude and Renae.

In a video shared on TikTok, they were first seen all dancing by the pool in their matching white pyjamas to Girls Just Wanna Have Fun, by Cyndi Lauper.

Then in a quick transition, which saw Perrie go towards the camera and flash her HUGE engagement ring, the camera zoomed out to show the star now in her stunning wedding gown.

The singer was then seen dancing on a staircase with her bridesmaids, who are now wearing blue satin gowns.

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It comes as Perrie has also officially changed her name to reflect her new marital status as Alex’s wife.

On social media, the singer now goes by Perrie Oxlade-Chamberlain.

Meanwhile, joining Perrie on her big day were her two Little Mix bandmates, Jade Thirwall, 33, and Leigh-Anne Pinnock, 34.

Jade proved the ultimate multi-tasker, staying to watch the I Dos but leaving early into the evening celebrations to perform 335 miles away at Primavera Sound in Porto.

Leigh-Anne remained at the ceremony, with newlywed Perrie telling Vogue they hit the dancefloor together.

She told the publication: “We were absolutely going off to En Vogue… we still remembered all of our harmonies and the choreography!”

Other showbiz guests included ex Arsenal footballer Carl Jenkinson and Fulham‘s Harrison Reed.

Perrie and Alex wed in the Igreja Matriz de Estoi church, close to where they own a villa.

After their nuptials they headed to their wedding reception at the nearby restaurant Parrilla Natural.

The newlyweds shut down the Faro venue for the lavish event, which saw the place transformed with fresh flowers and white linen.

A source told The Sun: “Perrie and Alex’s wedding day could not have been more special.

“It was intimate and emotional.

“Perrie and Alex’s son Axel had a special role to play in the ceremony. It was adorable to see.

“She looked absolutely radiant and Alex didn’t stop smiling. It was a truly beautiful day.”

Insiders revealed Perrie and Alex had chosen to wait until after the birth of their daughter Alanis to wed.

“Perrie and Alex love the Algarve and have a home there, so they knew they wanted to get married there,” a friend added.

“Their guests were driven from their hotel to a top-secret venue for the ceremony, before being taken to Parrilla Natural for the reception.

“The weather was absolutely perfect too. The pictures are amazing.”

Insiders also said that generous Perrie and Alex put their guests up at the five star hotel Conrad Algarve, where it costs up to £2,800-a-night.

The newlyweds have been dating for over ten years and were engaged four years ago, after Alex proposed on a beachfront while they were on holiday.

They share two children – Axel, four, and Alanis, six-onths.

The pair first started dating back in 2016, with their big day falling close to their 10-year-anniversary.

PERRIE Edwards has admitted she felt “embarrassed” after suffering her first miscarriage, confessing she was convinced she had “imagined” the whole pregnancy.

The Little Mix star, 32, suffered an early miscarriage during her first pregnancy, before welcoming ‘rainbow baby’ son Axel in 2021.

Recalling the time in a candid new interview, Perrie explained that, despite having multiple positive tests, a medical professional had told her there was no baby.

This led to the singer convincing herself she had imagined the whole pregnancy, despite it actually being a miscarriage.

She told Jamie Laing on his Great Company podcast: “The woman said to me, she was like, ‘There’s no sack, there’s no baby’, and I thought, ‘How embarrassing, I’ve imagined the whole thing’.

“I was starting to think, ‘Did I read it wrong? I’m sure it said pregnant, I did so many of them’. So, I was then convinced that I’d made the whole thing up. So I was then going a bit crazy.”

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Perrie then explained how she went for another appointment to her gynecologist, where she was informed there was a baby, but she had sadly miscarried.

“He sat me down and was like, ‘No, no, there’s no baby’. I was like, ‘I understand that, I’ve been told that, but was there ever a baby? I’m really confused.’

“And he was like, ‘There was a pregnancy, darling, but now it’s gone, you’ve miscarried.’ And I was like, ‘Ohh’,” said Perrie.

Following the harrowing situation, Perrie and her footballer partner Alex Oxlade-Chamberlain then welcomed their son, Axel, in August 2021.

And less than a year later, they found out they were expecting another child.

But Perrie again suffered a devastating miscarriage, which this time came much later in the pregnancy at 24 weeks.

She described the loss as the “worst day of my life”, recalling how distraught it left her.

Perrie then fell pregnant again in 2025, announcing the sweet news to her fans in September.

In January this year, she and Alex welcomed their baby daughter Alanis Valentine.

PERRIE Edwards has spoken out on ex-bandmate Jesy Nelson and shared her heartbreak over her twins’ diagnosis. 

Jesy, 34, previously shared the devastating news that her baby girls Story and Ocean had been diagnosed with SMA1. 

Now Perrie, 32, has shared her support for her former friend, after Jesy quit Little Mix in 2020 and sparked a bitter fall-out among the girls. 

Appearing on Jamie Laing’s Great Company podcast, she said: “I mean, when I think everything we’ve been through as a group, and even though it ended in ways that I wouldn’t have wanted it to, and we’re not that close anymore and we’re not in each other’s lives, I still feel everything that the girls feel and I think they’re the same. 

“We’ll always have that weird connection. And seeing Jesy go through that, it broke me.

“Because you wouldn’t wish that on anyone. It’s literally wild. And as much as we’ve got our issues and, you know, I think I don’t want to see her go through that.

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“I don’t want to see her hurt and I don’t want to see any of that. It’s heartbreaking.”

In her recent documentary Life After Little Mix, Jesy made some bold claims about Perrie, Jade Thirlwall and Leigh-Anne Pinnock. 

Recalling how she attempted to take her own life before quitting the group, she said: “I sat ­everyone down to explain how I was feeling and I remember one of the responses being, ‘Are you done now? Is that it?’

“She [one of the girls] was like, ‘Can I go now?’”

Fighting back tears, Jesy added: “That made me feel really alone. I felt like there was no point. That no one cared.”

And in her chat with Jamie, Perrie had her say. When he asked if she envisioned repairing her friendship with Jesy, she said: “If I’m being completely transparent, part of me wanted to until the documentary. And then part of me withdrew again. 

“I’m not a horrible person. I haven’t got a bad one in my body, but I can cut you off.

“There’s personal things, there’s public things, there’s everything. I don’t have the capacity for somebody like that in my life anymore. And that might make me sound like a bitch, but I just don’t have the energy for it.

“And as much as I will always love her, I don’t think I can hack that energy in my space.”

PERRIE Edwards has laid bare her former heartache over her “hellish” split with boyband singer Zayn Malik.

The Little Mix alum, who started dating the One Direction star in 2012, told of her “breakdowns” following their break-up in 2015.

The pair became engaged prior to calling time on their relationship, yet things ended badly, with Perrie, 32, claiming that Zayn broke up with her via text.

Rumours were also rife that he cheated on the Black Magic singer and the popstar, who now is a mum of two and set to wed fiance Alex Oxlade-Chamberlain, has again hinted at infidelity and “overlap” in a new chat on podcast Great Company.

She bravely re-visited her “hellish” heartache in the chat with Made in Chelsea alum Jamie Laing and said of her split with Zayn: “When you go through heartbreak, it is hellish.

“It’s the worst thing in the world. You can’t eat. You can’t sleep. You feel horrendous.

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“You feel abandoned and you don’t feel good enough and you feel like you’ve been left for something better or whatever it is.

“And then what makes it even worse is, I felt like the world was then looking at me, laughing at me.

‘Not my fans, my fans were like, ‘we love you, we’ll fight your corner no matter what.’ But I felt embarrassed. I felt horrified. It was awful”.

The Shout Out To My Ex hitmaker then told Jamie she didn’t stay sane in the aftermath of the split and had “serious breakdowns”.

She added: “It wasn’t just the heartbreak I was dealing with.

“I was dealing with everybody looking at me and I felt ridiculed. I just couldn’t cope with it.

“I hated it. I was breaking down in performances, which isn’t like me at all. I was breaking down. I was crying constantly. I think I was depressed.

“And I know it sounds ridiculous, but I think it was this plus, this plus, this and everything on top.

“I had to be there for the girls. I had to be switched on. I had to power through for Little Mix, but I also just wanted to be left the f**k alone. But I also was getting followed every two seconds and asked about it 24/7”.

In the lengthy chat she hinted at an “overlap” between Zayn and another of his lovers and admitted she “needed to be careful” how to phrase it.

She then referenced his music video for his debut solo single Pillowtalk, which featured supermodel Gigi Hadid, who would go on to be his girlfriend and the mother of his child.

Perrie said: “I need to be careful how I say this, but there was, let’s just say there was a bit of a… I’m just going to say it.

“So there was a bit of an overlap.

“I think when you’re moving on with somebody else you always get on better.

“When you’re the one left behind, that’s when it’s hard because it’s like, ‘Oh s**t, they’ve left me for someone more beautiful than me, someone better than me.’

‘Whatever it is, that’s how it felt at the time.

“And then you have a song that they’ve written about you, but then someone else is in the video.”

The Sun has gone to Zayn’s rep for comment.

Thankfully, Perrie’s love life is now firmly on the up.

The singer and footballer fiance Alex, both 32, announced their engagement four years ago and share children Axel, four, and Alanis, who was born in January.

Zayn and Gigi dated in 2015 and had an on-off relationship until 2021.

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Perrie Edwards has explained why Leigh-Anne Pinnock has likely been cast as a traitor after her former Little Mix bandmate was announced as part of the lineup for the hit BBC show

Perrie Edwards has explained why Leigh-Anne Pinnock has likely been cast as a traitor on the next series of Celebrity Traitors. The Little Mix star, 32, was asked for her opinion after her bandmate Leigh-Anne, 34, was announced as part of the lineup for the upcoming edition of Claudia Winkleman‘s hit BBC series.

Earlier this year, comedian Alan Carr schemed his way to victory after being cast as a traitor and now that Leigh-Anne, along with a host of other huge names like Love Island host Maya Jama and Coronation Street legend Julie Hesmondhalgh have been chosen to enter the famous castle as either a Faithful or a Traitor, Perrie has weighed in

Speaking on the Hanging Out with Ant & Dec podcast, she implied she’d be a good traitor because of her affinity for mischief: “Oh she is so annoying, I already know she is going to annoy me. You don’t understand how infuriating it is, she would lie about silly things so she would do pranks and we’d be like, ‘Leigh-Anne’s that’s…’ and she’d be like ‘it’s a prank’ and I’m like ‘that’s not a prank you’ve just lied, it’s just annoying’. And so I don’t know if I’ve got it in me to watch her do that for a full series.”

Despite her enthusiasm and ability to come up with a theory for her bandmate, Perrie admitted that this will be the first time she has ever seen the hit game show.

She said: “I’ve never seen it, never! I can’t get into it but now I am going to have to because Leigh-Anne’s on it and so I need to watch it now!”

Initially, the star avoided using words and simply shared two emojis after the announcement was made that she was set to take part. She posted a looking eyes emoji as well as an emoji covering its faces with its hands to signal she isn’t sure what she’s signed herself up for in the new season.

Leigh-Anne will line up with some huge names in the industry, including Michael Sheen and Jerry Hall. The 21-star list also includes Richard E Grant and Miranda Hart.

Also taking part is BBC presenter Amol Rajan, The Last of Us actress Bella Ramsey and comedian James Acaster – not to be mixed up with You’re Beautiful singer James Blunt, who has also signed up. Comedy stars Joanne McNally and Joe Lycett, and social media content creator King Henry were also announced.

Industry actress Myha’la and BBC maths guru Professor Hannah Fry. Rob Beckett with be bringing laughs alongside TV sidekick Romesh Ranganathan, flanked by former EastEnder Ross Kemp and My Mad Fat Diary star Sharon Rooney.

Game of Thrones actor Sebastian Croft completes the line-up as former Strictly Come Dancing presenter Claudia gets ready to choose her Traitors.

While they will all take part exactly like the usual Traitors series, rather than take any winnings themselves, the celebrity players will be donating anything they get from the potential £100,000 jackpot to their chosen charities

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Strictly Come Dancing finalist Amber Davies, who shot to fame when she won Love Island, has hit back at claims that she only went on the ITV2 dating show to try to make it to the West End stage

Amber Davies insisted that she didn’t go on Love Island just to further her stage career. The actress, 29, competed on the ITV2 reality dating show in 2017 and went on to win it alongside then-boyfriend Kem Cetinay.

Before her rise to fame, Amber trained in musical theatre at the Urdang Academy in London and openly spoke of her desire to make it to the West End whilst she was on the show. Following her victory on the programme, she was cast alongside Louise Redknapp in the London production of Dolly Parton musical 9 to 5, and then appeared in a UK tour of Bring It On: The Musical before returning to the West End to star in Back to the Future.

She followed this up with starring roles in Pretty Woman: The Musical and The Great Gatsby before enjoying a star turn on last year’s edition of Strictly Come Dancing, where she made it to the final alongside professional partner Nikita Kuzmin after being roped in at the last minute as a replacement for Dani Dyer.

However, Amber has now insisted she only went on Love Island because she couldn’t find employment elsewhere as she spoke with fellow West End star Jacob Fowler, who got his big break when he won Little Mix: The Search on the BBC in 2019.

Speaking on her Call To Stage podcast, she said: “A lot of people ask me, ‘Oh, did you do that just to get on the West End?’ No, I did it because I couldn’t get a bloody job! I didn’t want to work at a bar and Love Island were giving me a free holiday for six weeks. Luckily [it worked out]!”

Amber can currently be seen starring as Elle Woods in a UK tour of Legally Blonde: The Musical, but the production got off to something of a bumpy start amid various cast illnesses, and the TV star herself was forced to take time away from the part earlier this year.

While she was away, TikTok star Hannah Lowther took over the part but rumours of a “feud” between the two began to emerge, which both actresses quickly quashed, although comparisons of how each of them portrayed Reese Witherspoon’s signature role of a sorority-girl-turned-lawyer role continued to dominate social media.

Following her return to the show after fighting off a chest infection, Amber admitted that while she did sign up to be “in the spotlight” with her TV career, she never expected to receive the amount of online hate she has done over her stage work.

She said: “I know that going on Love Island put me in the spotlight. I didn’t know how much it was going to and I feel so grateful that 10 years on, I was on Strictly, and there’s so many amazing things that have happened to me. I definitely am used to it but I do have to prepare myself.”

“The last thing I do want to speak out about – this has broke my heart in ways that I can’t even possibly imagine. When I was doing Strictly I’d had a meeting with my team and they prepared me for the trolling and the opinions.

“Sometimes the opinions aren’t trolling but the opinions are mean, so it counts as trolling. I think sometimes when people leave mean comments, they forget that they are talking about an actual human being who is just working hard.

“What I wasn’t prepared for was the trolling that was going to come with Elle. I have worked…I am trying to find the words to explain this…I’ve been in this industry, I’ve done lots of jobs and I’ve never experienced trolling within the musical theatre industry as much as I have during this time.”

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LILY ALLEN has long been a fan of Jade Thirlwall and now they’ve teamed up for a collaboration.

I can reveal she has recorded a new version of her West End Girl album track Beg For Me with the Angel Of My Dreams singer, with the new take set to drop tomorrow.

Lily teased the release of a new track on Instagram on Tuesday night – which I can confirm will be this one.

She shared a video with the caption: “Oops decided I’m not done ;)) got another song for youuu.”

The move will raise hopes that Jade could be a special guest when Lily headlines Mighty Hoopla festival in Brockwell Park, South London, on Saturday night.

Jade is a massive fan of the event and performed there last year, with Lily previously teasing she had surprises in store for fans at the show.

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The Smile singer rocketed back into the spotlight last October when she dropped West End Girl.

It documented, in gritty detail, the breakdown of her marriage to Stranger Things actor David Harbour.

Then in January, Lily confirmed: “I’m doing a remix version of the album, where different female artists are responsible for each of the songs.”

Getting Jade on board is certainly a strong start.

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OLIVIA RODRIGO made a right song and dance on the set of her new video.

She was in New York wearing a dark jumper and knee-high boots, flanked by a troupe of ballerinas.

Olivia has unveiled the tracklist to her third album, You Seem Pretty Sad For A Girl So In Love, which will be out in a fortnight.

It will be split into two halves, with the first, Girl So In Love, featuring recent single Drop Dead.

The second half, You Seem Pretty Sad, the track The Cure.

Alfie on facing himself

ALFIE BOE delivered a magical performance at the Royal Albert Hall on Tuesday as he revealed the truth about his new album Face Myself.

The singer and musical theatre star had the crowd belting out his new songs as well as previous covers, including Leona Lewis’s Run and Bring Him Home from Les Miserables.

He said of the album: “The reason why I call it Face Myself is because I wanted to really look back at everything that has gone on for me in my life, and how I’ve got here today, got to this point, this minute, on stage at the Royal Albert Hall. I wanted to share with you the real Alfie Boe, the guy from Fleetwood in Lancashire.”

Macca: I’d be a teacher

SIR PAUL McCARTNEY has revealed what he might have been if music mega-stardom had not come calling – an English teacher.

The Beatles legend said: “Well, when I was at school, there’s always like the careers master who tells you, you know, ‘You’re no good, you’re hopeless, I see no future for you’.

“I’d done not very well in my exams.

“I had a couple of qualifications and they told me I could maybe be an English teacher.

“So I could have been your friendly English teacher.”

During a TikTok Live, Macca, who is worth an estimated £1billion and will release his 20th solo album The Boys Of Dungeon Lane tomorrow, added:

“I probably would have enjoyed that because I like that subject, and I like English literature and stuff. So that was my fallback position.”

‘Definetly a three’ says Perrie as Jesy is out of Little Mix reunion

PERRIE EDWARDS has ruled out Jesy Nelson ever returning to Little Mix – but said she is raring to go with a reunion as a three-piece .

Jesy quit the group in 2020 and then cut off all contact.

She has since spoken to the girls again, but Perrie said that a future comeback would only involve her, Leigh-Anne Pinnock and Jade Thirlwall.

Asked whether there will be a reunion, she told Attitude: “Oh, 100 per cent. I’m ready and raring.

“We always message each other and are bantering like, ‘So how long until we do a reunion? Are we going to do one? Where is it?’.

“I’m like, just give me a ballpark time. Do you know what I mean? Just let me know when.”

And pushed on whether it would be as a three or a four, she added: “A three. Definitely a three.”

For now though, Perrie – who is engaged to Celtic and former Arsenal footballer Alex Oxlade-Chamberlain – is still a solo artist and will release new single Passenger Princess on Friday.

On what the latest song is about, she said: “I love being independent, I love having my own s**t, I love doing everything for myself, being strong and a powerful woman.

“But you know, sometimes I can’t be f**ed.

“Sometimes I just want to do nothing and be like, ‘Alex, can you just help me, look after me?’, you know?”

JUDY FINNIGAN is considering a return to showbiz by launching a podcast with hubby Richard Madeley, 17 years on from their last TV series.

He said on Channel 5’s Vanessa yesterday: “We’ve had a conversation with a very good producer friend of ours, an ex-editor of This Morning, and we have kicked a few ideas around. It’s in the air.”

BAD BUNNY has joined the voice cast of new movie Toy Story 5 – as a slice of pizza in sunglasses.

The rapper has recorded his part for the film, which is out on June 19, and will arrive in the UK a week later for two sold-out shows at the Tottenham Stadium in London.

His character will be one of several items abandoned in a shed, alongside a garden gnome voiced by Capital’s Jordan North and an inflatable flamingo voiced by Sian Welby.